Life After College and Its Wondrous Opportunities or Thanks, I'll Have Another Beer

As you know, two weeks ago, I walked across the stage receiving a blank book, which we soon hold my diploma.  As the great thinker Sean McAdams once said, paraphrasing Steve-O from SLC Punk, "Philosophy is the wrong fucking major for a guy like you".  So yes, I earned my BA with a double major in Political Science and Philosophy, which basically means i need to go to grad school/I think way to much (or I pretend to at least).  So now that I have walked across the stage I am forced to answer the question of ages,  "So what are your plans now?"  After my graduation party last week, and my girlfriends sisters wedding last night (which was the first time I met the majority of her family, yeah I was under the gun), I have heard that question...umm, i believe 68 times give or take a few.  So now I am going to ask myself a few questions and then answer them.

1. What are you going to do now?

2. What do you plan to do?

3. Do you think you will be starting a family?

Those are the questions that have been going through my head recently, and have been in the minds of everyone I am in a relatively close with.  So for question one.  I have no clue.  I am taking my LSAT here soon, and honestly that seems to be the smartest route for me to take but I don't know.  I would love to do something in music, or in any capacity of the arts, but honestly I do not know if I have the ability to do such, so for right now I am going to work at the buzz until I get a better job, and until I get into grad school.  For what I plan to do, I guess the previous answer in some ways answers that question, but honestly i have no real plans.  I am just waiting to see what happens.  Now to the third question.  I have been in a relationship for nearly a year and a half, and I love her.  But do I want to start a family, are you kidding me.  Yesterday I went to a wedding and before I left I stopped for some coffee, and my boss said well hey maybe you'll get the bug.  Ummm, really, I don't know what that bug is, well i do, but i don't want to.  I work in a fucking coffee shop, and I make enough, sometimes that is, to pay rent, and I am scraping bottom.  My reply to my boss was, "i'm almost 23", and her reply was "well i got married at 22". FUCK.  Well clearly age has nothing to do with when people should get married.  One of my best friends just got married, and he is 23, but he is happy and it seemed to be a great fit, but shit i don't think I could honestly share a place with anyone, well bed every night that is.  And furthermore, have kids.  I say I don't want kids, and that i hate kids, and that is not exactly true, i just hated kids when i was a kid, and i really don't like the idea of me being fully in charge of another human.  I can barely take care of myself.  What is the deal with everyone being expected to have a kid?  Shit, how many more people do we need in this world.

So that is my answer to all the questions I have heard directly, indirectly, or between the lines and all that jazz.  I don't know, I don't know and come on do I really look like I am ready to make that decision.  

I think i should further expand on that idea.  Having a kid is a big fucking deal.  Getting married is a big fucking deal.  So if I don't want to get married right now, why in the fuck would i even want to think about wanting kids.  maybe i'll want one, but right now, no.  right now i dont even want to get married.  so please, i know that if you are reading this you probably haven't asked me these questions, but these are questions that i do not want to hear anymore, except from one person, and it should be clear who it is.  Unless i bring it up please don't ask me.

Btw, I am a child myself, babies making babies, just think how bad that would be, and think how small they would be.  It would just turn into some kind of russian doll situation.